Emotion Beneath The Ice

This is the time of rainy evening

I had stressful long day

So I went to bar and I had small of Jonny walker

After some time I got annoyed because of the loud music in bar

So I left outside to have smoke and then go home

 

I went to one near tea stalls to brought Marlboro

That time I saw her talking over the call

Our eyes does clicked each other for the moments

My mind said something like this
“she is beautiful girl and she has shiny eyes”

I can see them below her specs staring at me

 

A guy gave me my stuff and I left from there toward open spaces

Where I lighted my smoke

I was thinking about the where is my life is taking me

Meanwhile I saw her again couple of steps besides me

She was holding her phone checking things which doesn’t make sense

 

I have been in many situations so I knew why she was acting like that

She must in bad situation where she is not sure what she wants

 

I wanted to approach her and ask her out

 

So I took deep breath and gather some courage

I went to her

 

I: hey!!!

She: hey!! Yes!!! (She wasn’t surprise as if she was expecting me)

 

I was nervous I forget what I wanted to say to her

 

I : look I don’t know but I felt that you look stressed out and I thought may be I can help you out

 

Before she says something

 

I: you don’t have to tell me your name or anything so you will be complete Stanger for me and I can advise you well

 

She: Oh yeah!!

And we smiled

 

I: so tell me what is it that bothering you this much

 

I: boyfriend issues?

 

She: yes!! It’s like that he is in Delhi

It’s a long distance problem

 

I: aha!! I see you know what!!
I don’t want to say this but long distance normally never works

I have been in that situation.

 

She: exactly!!!! He wants to get married and I am not ready for it.

 

I: it doesn’t look like much of problem. Your parents are not agreeing?

 

She: no they are ok with it.

 

She: it is like I am not sure what I want in life.

I: Do you love him? If you do go for it

And if you are not in love with him think twice

He is not wrong but you both want different things

 

She took as pause to reply me and I knew she don’t love him

 

She: I am not sure

I: I know exactly what is happening to you. You are addicted of talking to him

 

It is like when you are not in love with the person but you still stick to the person because you like them to be around

 

I: you better broke up with him because it will more difficult with respect to time

.

She: yes!! You are right

I: don’t accept thing, which you can’t accept it later in life as if this is life-changing decision

 

We didn’t realize we were talking from long time
She: may I have your cigarette?

I: yeah sure here you go but its hard one you sure about it

 

She: yeah cool any will work.

 

I: OK!!

 

We lighted it up

 

She: what is your story!!!

 

I: Oh yeah sure my story. I am doing nothing these days. I am here to look for job.

 

I wanted change in life so I just landed day before in this town.

She: what you were doing before
I: I am businessperson I just do thing whatever I want in life

She: that is nice!!!

 

I notice she is uncomfortable a lot

 

I: are you ok????
She: I am feeling dizziness
I: do you want to sit??

She was so out of her she was unable to hear me may be
Few seconds after

she: can you please drop in auto. I need to go home.
I: oh yes! Sure . lets go

we went to side road

 

I: where you want to go?
She: Andheri

 

I: ok!!

 

I asked the auto driver and we set in the auto

I was holding her hand

 

I: are you ok???? Do you want water?

She: no, I am not ok.. what you gave me???

 

I laugh out

 

I: oh now I see you smoked my cigarette, which is very strong

That why you are feeling so high

 

I: don’t worry you will be fine in few minutes

 

She: yes I am feeling normal now Thank god!! I was so worried that who is that man and what he gave me

We bust laugh out

 

I: don’t worry I am not kind that person. I am coming to drop you and I will come back then.

 

She: that is so nice of you!!! But I will not going to tell you my name!! I am going to remember you till my life

 

I: Me too

 

I drop her at her near to her building.

 

I: how I will remember you
she: light

I:I say I wish to see you light

She: smiled

I: bye take care
she: bye take care

 

I went back home that night and I think about her all night

 

 

To be continue……….

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Waiting for me to come home

When I come back to home at mid night

Drowsy and exhausted

I sneak into your blanket

Holding you in arms

Whispering to you “I have missed you”

I still remember your sleepy smile

With whispering me back “ missed you so much”

 

We got melt with single touch

I can feel your soul

Drowning me in your love

 

You wake me up with kiss

With coffee in your hand

I can feel your happiness

Holding me close to you

 

You whisper me “lets take shower”

Kissing on my neck

I can feel your pleasure

Healing my wounds

 

I can feel love

Nobody else but just us

 

You know I need to go

I can feel pain in your eyes

Waiting for me even before go

Strengthening my heart

 

You whisper me “come soon”

I can feel your joy

Whispering you back “ I will be back soon”

Waiting for me to come home

I just want to see you one more time

Your words are still whispering in my ears all the time
Your hands are still holding me in your arms in my daydreams

Why just can’t I see you
Even when you are here

I don’t know
I just want to see you one more time

I need to tell you

I love us and I want to keep on loving it
Why don’t you come back?

So I can merge your soul with mine
You can hear me

I know you can

You can’t lie to me

I can sense it

Even if you are beyond this universe
I want to kiss you again like I am kissing you for the first time
I don’t know

I just want to see you one more time

I hate it when you are away

I hate it when you are away
I ignore you when you are close

Thinking about you while you are next to me
Holding your hand but not you
I have a beautiful image of you
That’s why I don’t want to let it go

Why everything has to change
Why can’t it stay forever the same
I don’t love you; I love us
B’coz Life is empty without your aura

I love you more in my imagination
Deeper than the sea,
powerful than the black hole
I desire you like water in the desert
You are like wind in the storm

I hate it when you are away
I ignore you when you are close

“She told me I would starve for love
Her words were like invisible arrows
cutting my soul like butter on knife 
She didn’t knew but she was starving 
just before I came into her life

she told me she will love me forever
I knew she was lying to her self 
she didn’t want to love me because 
it had nothing left; just pain and regrets

she told me I never loved her
I knew she was lying so that she can take the blame
Yet, she was right I never loved her
but I am going to love her from this day till last

she told me she wished if we had never met
as she didn’t want to fall in unconditional love
She praised me to destroy her
yet I had worship for her beautiful life

what is that which separates two souls 
From loving to taking care of each other

It was love that kept us together
and it was self-love that got us apart”